relationshipWell I didn't sleep very well last night. There have been quite a few bugs going round and I think that my luck of avoiding them may have run out. I'm certainly not 100%. I am slightly achey, have a sore throat and a headache. But thanks to a cocktail of drugs I'm running and am at work. Glad that I don't have position "A" today as that could be a step to far.
Last night I decided to cover a shift at short notice. On the way over I stopped and looked through the windows of the gym from a far to watch the trampolining. The girl I have that bad crush on was there, as well as that dickhead who I lived with last year. All though I can't see her dating such a sleeze bag as him, the thought angered me so much. It probably wasn't helped by my bloodsugar being higher than normal and not being at my best but even so, the seed was there in my mind. And maybe because when she and I had last spoke there wasn't the usual sparkle it rubbed salt into my open wounds.
For a very long time now on a Monday night we have spoken for hours, last night we didn't. Maybe because when I got back it was late and it's always mid-evening when we do. Maybe just fed up of each other. Perhaps I'll try to spend time away from her in body and mind if I can for a while. Maybe things will improve that way. Either way, I think I've got only one last real shot at dating her, if that. Keep saying that there are other girls out there, and I see plenty of nice ones at work but she just has something over me right now and I don't think she knows it.
Anyway, it's all lit the fire inside me and that is when I can be at the top of my game, so I'll see what happens.
